Adults constantly raise the bar on smart children, precisely because they're able to handle it. The children get overwhelmed by the tasks in front of them and gradually lose the sort of openness and sense of accomplishment they innately have. When they're treated like that, children start to crawl inside a shell and keep everything inside. It takes a lot of time and effort to get them to open up again. Kids' hearts are malleable, but once they gel it's hard to get them back the way they were.
As if to build a fence around the fatal emptiness inside her is not draining enough, she has to create a sunny persona that she became. But if you peeled away the ornamental ego empire that she had built, there was only an abbys of nothingness and the intense thirst that came with it. Though she tried to forget it, the nothingness would visit her periodically - the things she don't speak of, but at night she lives it all again or at dawn when she woke up from a nightmare. However, whenever she got scared and felt like crying, she would instead get angry- at someone else or herself-which also meant that it was rare for her to shed tears. What she needed at such times was something/someone to shield her from her demons.
One thing parents need to know about their child is that mental acuity was never born from comfortable circumstances. But there are certain meanings that are lost forever the moment they are explained in words. There will also be certain places where all the answers gahter and hang out but those are the places are far too convenient- though strange enough, adults can't find. So all you'll ever know is the daughter that has been carefully filtered, securely masked, in other words- e n o u g h of her for your convenience to shape a 'general idea' of your child.
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