A breath away's not far, to where you are

It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on by yourself... noo one knows this better than the young. For most, sooner or later, the time comes when some homones kick in and they reached a realization that they must become responsible adults and learn to give up what they want, so as to choose to do what is right. Of course, a lifetime of responsibility isn't always easy. And as the years go on, it's a burden that bcomes too heavy for anyone one person to bear. But still, people try to do what's politically 'the best', what is considered 'good' and 'right'. Not only for ourselves, but for those we love. Yes, to do what is right, we got to be steady and give up the thing we want the most. However, the only difference is between who will let go first and who learns to hold on a second longer to see their wants hold hands with their needs and responsibilities and have everything work out for them.

Life, I realize, is much like a song. In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation, but it’s in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile and it is never ever fair, and so, if they teach anythiing in schools, that should be it. As for love, it is fragile. And we're not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope this fragile thing survives against all odds. And it is also on nights like this one when I think of you. How we're drawn apart by the balance of things - and I shall never see you again.

These days I haven't been sleeping, staying up playing back myself leaving your ward, clueless that that's going to be goodbye. Cheated? How this is all an illusion like dusk: how the sun is either above the horizon or below it. And that means that day and night are linked in a way that few things are there cannot be one without the other yet they cannot exist at the same time. How would it feel I remember wondering to be always together yet forever apart?

Up beyond the distant stars, I wish upon tonight to see you smile. Dear Grandma, I bet you never knew what you have over me: This girl who goes on laughing, talking and smiling just like old times, could be that same girl that crys herself to sleep time after time.