You're the kinda reckless that should send me runnin' but I kinda know that I won't get far...

Real life is a funny thing you know.
In real life saying the right thing, at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I’ve began to fear more than that, is letting the moment pass without saying anything. I think most of us fear, reaching the end of our life, and looking back, regretting the moments we didn't speak up. Wen we didn't say "I love you" to the ones who deserves them. When we should've said "I'm sorry". When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help. I think
we deserve to look back on our life without this chorus of resounding voices saying, I could have but it’s too late now. So there’s a time for silent, and there a time for waiting your turn. But if we
know how we feel, and we so clearly know what we need to say. It comes naturally and you’ll know it. I don’t think you should wait. I think you should speak now!

Contort, not

Decisions , decisions ,decisions .
So here i sit , contract in hand . Wondering what new loops of fire I need to jump through in the circus of life .
Should I attempt the next yogini pretzel conformist ,contortionist acclaim or take that blind leap of faith into the deep beyond ? Work wise... i'm stuck in a rut. To play the safe route versus being the vigilant voyager. My pen's not willing to budge . The only thing that's fluid is the memory of mr enigma, whom in my mind ... is like fresh ink still drying...
and in time ...he will be etched onto my mind ,
indelible.

Turns up a miasma of implausible convolutions ...
When you feel like caving into something you know is so wrong ... yet unbridled spontaneity seem to tug wildly at those heartstrings, orchestrating the meek guarded heart beats into an escalated crescendo .... what should one do ? To seek freedom from the known ? Or save oneself from yet another vicious cycle ?
I go to macdonald's and wait to see if chicken nuggets will help ; ) or ... i think about long term probable ramifications versus short-term immediate pleasure . & sometimes the here and now deserves to take priority over what one may think happens later ....
Ultimately . The moments last only an instant .... and the right person who says and do all the right things to match exactly to that moment shall leave a lifetime of memory .
But than again, I wish the glow from my apple-cell would just illuminate the answered smile .