Mission Impossible

Dmitri's quick-snap before performance unveiledPeople go for help, but their lives don't get better because of those [psychiatric] drugs. They get worse. They feel numb and they're told that's a good thing. It's how you degrade a society: by drugging the piss out of it.

Sometimes the best way to move into the unknown is to take familiar steps, small steps. To do ordinary things to deal with something that is in no way ordinary. We're always going someplace new, all the time. Familiar things just let us pretend that we aren't moving into unfamiliar territory. You take those small familiar steps, and you try to be honest, not to live as if nothing had changed but still to go on with your life. But there are times when what you need is a piece of how things used to be.

Recapitulating

Haven't been blogging for a while, so i'll squeeze everything in a quick run-up!

Saturday:
Been busy mugging through many Math sums my teacher gave, so it's been kinda of a hooked up day. Went for sushi for dinner! It's a whole extended family night-out occasion. Oh, got Dean over as well since his such a zany entertainer. haha~ & how we waited for our delicacies. Booked the restaurent like a week ago to find that it's still so pack. Not that it affected us or anything but too many outsiders kinda spoils the traditional atmosphere. We were like there at 6+ and waited till 9+ before our food come can! By the time food appear, Dean ran dry from his witticism.
Waited for dessert! Ordered green-tea ice cream. My favourite!
Like so small the scoop can! Ate like 6 before i started running to the toilet. Than finally returned from the congested lavortory. No mood to continue munching, thus we all went cam-whoring on the table. XD

Sunday:
Continueing with my episodes on homeworking mugging and oh, Music.
Went for violin lessons at like 11.ooam. Sleep-lacking.
My violin teacher taught me new stuffs today -----> China music i would call it. Damn nice! She's like describing an imagary to me, than we're like having so much fun playing the songs together can! I love playing together with her, it makes me feel Great and all so Mighty! The songs are like super quick, sprintie and flighty! XD like a kid's innocence. Awesome!

Monday:
Gotta Literature workshop in school. Quite cool actually well maybe not the part where it lasts till like 6.30pm. The instructor's name is Julia. She can come down quite harshly on us wit her comments well teachers will be teachers cold & there, but at least she kept me paying close attention.

Today:
Here blogging =)

Lights/Camera/Action

Been picking up the pieces of whatever that's left of my Life. School has been a means of distraction from my some what futile thoughts. Think Brightly!
Well anyway, performed at my school's assembly yesterday. Was quite a kicking feeling to have received those thunderous claps at the start of me playing. Though i was still trembling like a bare tree. Not to mention receiving those encouraging and kind comments from teachers as well as students and my adorable juniors! (those who tagged as well) Of course, i know honestly that that really wasn't my best output, considering i tumbled over many scaling notes. Oh well, that just mean i gonna go back to the drawing block.

I Screamed!

Didn't turn up for Speech Day. Super sick, down with stupendous cough and sneezy syndroms. Missed meeting Shin when i promised i'll "show myself" today.Cio performance as well, didn't get to chat with Char. Ok, i can really get kinda chattie with these 2 confidant. Got into a major car crash on my car while i'm on my way to see the Doc feeling rather moody for missing out on some fun. My crash-free car just got bumped by a psychopathic Lorry Driver. Lucky girl---->M.E! got away with just shockness. Phew~
But than that Lorry Driver made a huge Boo-Boo Bigtime! Was just looking around for someone to vent out my fustrations, and here comes Mr Blunder. Ok, so i wasreally cruel. I practically just got off my car and screamed my heads off! Said quite an amount of really crude stuff. Don't blame me, he gave me the chance. I'm just making full use of it. i mean HELLO, crash-free and now he's ruined it! Took many pics of the crazhed effects and his pics. Not gonna admire them cause it disgusts me. Alot. Just gonna have him charged for all the time he made me loss plus the damage. Well, anyway feel a litty-bitty guilty being so abusive early at the wee mornings.
Oh well, he got it coming & he should know it-----by NOW XD

I Will Be

Busy week & busy day. Facing upcoming events such as Speech Day and assembly recital. Ratings from 1-10? 10. Butterfiles are sure brewing in my tummies but was soon subsided by Mr Leong's word that he would play along too. Phew~ lifted some load off my shoulders. Handled many tests this week as well.
I get this unfathomable feeling of fustration which i just wanna let it all out! But i made no sound.
I'm screaming aloud inside but nobody would be able to hear or look up.
Perhaps i must never let go, i'll never be able to let go. Not in this life that is.
I tried to be that little princess you wanted me to be, but now i know, how far you've go. I'll keep trying, though you alone will never see, but i want everyone else that matters to me to see it for eternity.
& if i let you down, i'll turn it all around, cause this time I'll never let anyone else walk away . Ever I don't wanna fail, who does? Fuck it!